It's good to see you here. Visitors always give pleasure. :)

I'm a normal seventeen-year-old girl. I'm a real good girl, though I swear like almost everyday. I may be crazy sometimes, but please trust me, I can be a good friend. I can't live without chocolates and ice-cream, 'cause they are already part of my life. :)

Reached home at about 1 p.m. today. After a while, I went online. When I opened my Tagged message box, I was shocked to read a message a guy on Tagged sent to me. He said things about his "thingy" and it was really grossy. I was like, OMG!!! That was the most disgusting message that others had sent to me. LOL

Went for a drink with sis Sheryl just now. A couple was sitting near us. The girl and the boy were like so intimate that me and my sis laughed. Of course, I don't think they knew we were laughing at them. By the way they dressed, we didn't think that they will be acting so intimate in the public. Haha. My sis said they were very "in". LMAO

Alone in the house again. I don't know what to do. Maybe I'll take a nap soon. :P Well.... Today, I wanna apologize to all the people that I offended before. I was wrong. I thought too much. I was too sensitive. I was stupid enough to believe in what I thought was right. I'm so sorry, people. I really do. You were right, my friend. :)

Guess what? Shun Mun decided to lose weight!!! Please support her, if you don't, you can just get lost.

P/S: Soh Kuan, no adult content today.
Morning is the beginning of the day. Today morning was supposed to be a great start for me in a Tuesday, but YOU!!! Yeah, it was YOU!!! YOU ruined my beautiful, lovely, cheerful, innocent morning!!! You S.H. !!! Arrghhhhh..........!!!!!!!!! My whole morning was ruined just because of you!!!!!!!!!

School was boring as usual, attended Chinese extra class after school. It was good 'cause I just listened to some of my classmates reading out the text that Puan Chong gave us, and of course, listened to Puan Chong's teaching. The whole text was about LOVE, to be more accurate, FIRST LOVE. I think some of the sentences in the text gave me goosebumps. LOL. But I can't deny, it was a really wonderful text after all.

Going to swim afterwards. I'm too tensed. :(

Oh yeah, cheer up, Yi Ning. There are tonnes of beautiful fish in the big ocean, see? :)

Before I stop writing, this is for you, you who ruined my morning. You suck.

^.^ Oh well.... It's Saturday now...Nope, it should be Sunday. It's 12.43 a.m. now. so it's Sunday baby.....

Just back from a drink with my aunt and her family. Life is so bored that I don't know how to express it. And trial is coming very soon. I don't know what my teachers have been teaching. Guess I have to start doing revision from now on.

Texted him just now. He didn't seem like talking to me. Maybe Yi Ning was right, he got himself a new girl. Perhaps, huh, he is now back with his ex. Anything can happen in this world, and we won't know. Kind of confusing. Complicated. I just wanted to chat with him 'cause I was bored like fucking hell. Nothing much. Ewww.....

And I'm wondering why some people are so confident of themselves. Why wouldn't they look clearly of themself before saying anything? That's really funny. Hahaha!!!! Hope someone can laugh with me, 'cause it's really funny!!!! ROFL.

Gotta work on my homework soon. EST essays... I'm still thinking whether I wanna do them or not. Maybe I should get more opinions from my classmates.

Bye. Oh yeah... I do know, Music Club's president and some other people don't like me. By the way they talked to me, the way they treated me, I could see that. They look down on me, but it's ok. You will know that you're wrong one day, baby. :) And I won't give a damn on you anymore.

So, it's Friday again. Add Maths class was fun today since we didn't have to do much work. Not much learning required. Let's hope that Add Maths class will always be like that but then we'll be dead during exams. LOL

I tried playing tarot cards just now. Just wanted to know more about my life. But too bad, I was not sure if I had read them in the correct ways. And I really wanna finish reading " Sex and The City ", but I don't know if I can do that 'cause "it's still a long way to go". :P

Life's just boring. Bye.
Yeah... I'm so damn fucked up now.
Well, before that, Happy Birthday, Mun Mun! May you will always be smart, pretty and successful. :) Hope you will see this. LOL

Oh, such a fucked up life. I'm so sick of every single thing! So, why? It seemed like some people were not talking to me again these few days. If my instinct wasn't true, why they were doing that recently? Fuck! ( excuse me....)

Since life has been bad for me, I decided to give myself a lil treat today by having lunch at McDonald's. Having meals alone in McDonald's had always been fun. Saw a cute guy in there today. :p He was kind of fair, but ok, he was cute. LOL

Lastly, Dad, stop watching me while I blog. It's a privacy thing. It's a teenage thing.

It's 1.16 a.m. right now. Gonna sleep afterwards. Goodnight. Muackx. LOL Life nowadays has always been boring and frustrating. I hate my life!!! >.<

Hey to somebody, please behave yourself. Shut the fuck up! Oh well, it had been a long time since I last used the F word in my stupid blog I guess so. Feel so good to be me again, LOL.

School. Really feeling like quitting school. School is definitely not a place for a people like me. Maybe I should quit school and start working. I need money so badly too.

Dad couldn't fetch me home from school today. Walked home after finish watching the girls' basketball tournament. 5A12 girls lost to 5A10 girls today, but they did a great job anyway. Well done, girls! Walking home on the road, a car suddenly passed by. It was speeding and it really scared me. Fuck you, you stupid driver!!! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! How were you gonna repay my life if you hit me? And you weren't driving a sports car. Tell you what, your car is even older than my dad's car! You sucker!!!

Alright, feeling much better now after letting it all out. :) It's the day, ugh...Monday again. Not many of us like Mondays, I think. 'Cause it's the beginning of a working week, after a day or two holidays on the weekend. Yeah, I don't like Mondays. Stupid Mondays......

It was the boring school assembly again in the morning today. I'd waited for a long time, waited for Daniel to ask all of us to sit down so that I could take a lil nap. I didn't sleep well yesterday. Don't know why. Teachers and students were busy giving talks, speeches or whatever. It was hard for me to take my nap when I had to sit on the dirty floor. And oh yeah, sometimes, miracles do happen. My class, the one and only 5A12, got the cleanest class award last week. Wow.... From the beginning of the year till now, I had only been wiping the windows for 1 or 2 times. Cool, huh? ;O

Classes as usual, it was just that we had our Bio class in the class since there was no electrical supply to the Bio lab.

The whole KL, I think should be the whole Malaysia is in a hazy state right now. Looking outside the balcony, I can no longer see the nice view of KL. I csn not see the KL Tower, Petronas Twin Towers, Times Square buildings, etc. Just like nothing left. LOL It will be good if all of the students are given FREE holidays because of the hazy environment. :) But let's hope it will get well soon, 'cause the air is not healthy for all of us too.

Ok, bye. This is the 3rd day. So here am I, single again. He said that it would be better if we ended it 'cause he was having many problems. Well, sounds like I had been dumped. :O But he said that he still liked me. Perhaps..........LOL

Didn't attend "Yang Guang" meeting today. Seriously, I don't know whether they had a meeting today too. Went swimming at about 3.30 p.m. There were two girls swimming in the pool. To be accurate, playing. Then, a group of guys jumped into the pool. The girls who knew the guys went back. I think they went to the playground. I didn't see all the guys' faces, maybe there were one or two cute guys which I can bumped into. Haha. Nah, just kidding. Went back not long after that. Mom got a shock when she saw me. My skin complexion got darker again. Cool..... The only problem was the areas covered by the tankini were much fairer in colour. :D

Not gonna write anymore. Goodbye. Haha. It has been 2 days now. Am I enjoying my freedom again? Well, i don't know. No text messages from you anymore. Ok, just let it be then.

Yeah...Well, today is the 7th of July 2009. 6 days more to Exhibition Day. And when Exhibition Day is approaching, most of us are busy with our things. And yeah, so do conflicts occur. Everyone just wants the best for their clubs and societies or whatever, so they just don't care about other people's needs. " I want this, so you can't have this! " This is the situation.

So, brother, you must be a good husband and daddy. :P May you and your family be blessed always. :)

At 5.30 a.m. today, Uncle Jimmy was confirmed dead. He passed away after a few weeks in coma condition. Uncle Jimmy was an old friend of my dad, which my dad had known for about 40 years. That's a real long time, huh?

I remember he always gave me money when I saw him. I couldn't recall the day when I last saw him, but as I could remember, it was during a day after my school. I think that was on last year. He was together with my dad in the car when my dad came to fetch me home. It never see him again after that day. And few weeks ago, he got a stroke and it was a serious one. Then he was in coma. As I know, he did open his eyes about one or two weeks ago, but he couldn't talk or move. and on this morning, he finally passed away.

And I still remember Uncle Chin. He was a friend of my dad whom he had known in July last year. He was 40 years old and he is a tall guy. He is religious. He went to the temples, listened to the Chinese prayers, and so on. He passed away on the 2nd of December. A week after that day, only we got to know that he had already passed away. He suffered from a heart attack. My parents were curious 'cause he had not been keep in touch with them for a few days. Although we all just got to know each other, he was already becoming a close friend to our family. When they asked the guard at his condo, only they found out about his death. He passed away on his bed, alone. There was no one in his house at that time. it was shocking for us to hear the news.

Actually, I didn't really like being with Uncle Chin last time. He always talk about all those religious things and other things which I'm not really into them, so I felt frustrated whenever he talked about all those things. But what now? He is not here anymore. I can't no longer see him, hear him talking or have meals with him.

People come and go. Some people stay for a while in our lives and then they are gone forever. Some stay for a long time and finally they will be gone forever too. Some people enter our lives for a while, then they are gone. Maybe they are still living in this world, but we never see them anymore. If we are lucky enough, we can still see them or talk to them, but the feelings are not the same anymore.

Uncle Jimmy and Uncle Chin, rest in peace. You will always be on our minds.
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I'm always left alone. In the school, I'm always seen alone. Maybe alone is my symbol. So what? What if I'm not loveable? What if I'm not good enough to be your friend? I don't wanna be your friend either, 'cause you SUCK!!! LOL. I may be alone without you, but I'm not lonely. I have my family, right? :)

Sunday again. I hate Sundays. From primary school till now I never like Sundays, unless the day after that Sunday is a holiday. Sundays are creepy. Sundays indicate that the next day you got to go to school again and you have to finish your homework by today. That's creepy....

Went out for a drink with my parents just now. Saw a car with a "Don't Kiss My Fit Body" sticker on it. Pervertic enough, huh? :O

By the way...........



So..............
Finally, after don't know how long, I can get to go online in my home again. No more cybercafes. Hurray!!!

Well, he didn't text me for about 2 days already. OMG! What's wrong? Last night I sent a text to him telling him that we should just let go, but he didn't reply me! Oh god.... What is this? What he wants? Until now, I still haven't receive any sms from him! Is he trying to tell me that he let go too? Gimme an answer, B!!! Don't just ignore me!!! Seriously, I don't know if I really wanna end this thing. A part of me wanna let go, but another part of me wanna continue this. Maybe I get tired and bored about this relationship thing, I just don't know. Maybe I wanna get going with my normal life and get back my freedom. I really don't know. :( I just really really have no idea what should I do. What am I thinking? I'm so fucking confused.

Tomorrow's already Friday. I'm so freaked out that time passed by so damn fast. Without my notice, exam is so gonna be around the corner. I have to work harder and harder and harder in my studies. Wish me all the best. :)

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